Another day another panic.

Notes to self:

-Lay off the caffeine and chocolate.
-Make new friends
-Do things, don't just think about the possibilty of doing things.
-Smile more.
-Shave, the homeless look will never be "in"

Well as you can tell...

I didnt do a good job at all at keeping this blog updated. Been the best part of a year now.

However I am not abandoning it, I'll stick to it regardless I think.

Still can't shake the feeling.

My cough still isnt shifting, and with is comes a headache everytime I cough. I've gotten some over the counter decongestants in case its just a case of draining my sinuses, but currently they don't seem to be doing very much.

As likely fine and normal as this is (I mean really its just a persistent cough that is creating pressure giving me headaches,) I cant help but worry as usual.

Really tired of it at this point, just want it all to go away so I don't have to think about it anymore and focus on a few more happy things.

Whatever the hell they might be.

Been a few days...

Sorry its been a few days, nothing too new to report especially, more of the same worry over completely regular issues. Finished my anti biotics and yet this cough doesnt want to go anywhere.

My brothers birthday today, and the 12th anniversary of my Dad passing away :( Still think about him a lot and miss him of course. I wish they were all nice thoughts though, I think about how he died far too much and worry Im going to go just as quickly. The whole thing was likely one of the triggers for me feeling the way I do now.

Noones fault, just how it is, anyway Happy Brithday to my brother (also Elvis and David Bowie) and to my Dad I miss you. Hope eventually I might do you proud.

Pulled in all directions.

What do I do? When a million different things are pulling you in all directions which direction do you take? Do you follow your head (or in my case one of the many voices in my head :P) Your heart? Your gut? Other parts of the body? :P

What way do you go? And what happens if you make the wrong choice and lose the chance at something special in another direction?

You can't choose them all, but making no decision seems even more foolish?

/sigh

New Years Day

So like a lot of people probably have today Ive woken up at 3pm. Unlike a lot of other people its not because of a drink filled binge to ring in the new year its because I was up till 6am playing SWTOR.

Oddly though Im still dehydrated, nauseous and havea headache lol@antibiotics. Hangover without the good bit before that.